Sunday, September 25, 2016

Buyer's Remorse

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Isaiah 26:3

I struggle with buyer's remorse. Questions like "Did I get the best deal?," "Is this something I even need?," "Do I really like it?" flood my mind when I make most purchases -whether it is a pair of shoes, a new shirt or an appliance.   I use a lot of strategies to prevent buyer's remorse.  I like to try on clothes with bad hair and no make up - because if it looks good when I look bad- I know it is a winner.  I wear super comfortable shoes when I go shoe shopping so that if I like a pair of shoes I can compare them to one I really like to make sure they will be cute and comfortable long after I have left the store.  A bigger purchase means I pull out the big guns of research and prayer.  I eagerly subscribe to Consumers Reports, read online forums and scour review sites to get an outside perspective.  I'll ask friends for their advice and most importantly, I'll pray.  My goal is to know and do God's will. I really believe that God will show us His best if we ask him and wait on His response.  In my opinion, one of the reasons for the law in Leviticus is to teach us though we are no longer under the law, God has an opinion on seemingly insignificant things like what we wear and what we eat.

Over two years ago, I felt led to give my beloved and well-used silver Sienna van to friends who are missionaries at JAARS. My plan was to wait about six months and buy a another vehicle but when I went to test drive a new van, I wasn't impressed.  Why would I pay tens of thousands for a car that wasn't much of an improvement over my previous van? So I decided to test drive a Prius v, they got much better gas mileage and had a ton of room for carrying plants and soccer stuff. But I didn't have a peace about the Prius v either. I knew I would have buyer's remorse if I got it, so I decided to wait longer. I moved on to test driving a Honda Odyssey, Subaru Outback and a Lexus RX 450h and in each of them I felt like Goldilocks, "one was too small, one had bad visibility and one cost too much."  I wasn't willing to buy a new car until it was "just right."  I wanted that feeling of perfect peace and confidence that I was in God's Will.  Like Goldilocks, I know what "just right" feels like when it comes to following God.

After two years of trips to car lots, my family was done. I'd tell them I'd found a possibility on Auto Trader and they would look at me sadly, unwilling to believe that I would ever find one that was just right.  The years of car limbo rolled by.  I had perfect peace when I gave our friends our van so why couldn't I fill that spot in our garage?  School started again and I finally felt maybe it was time.  I found a silver Sienna online for sale at a car rental company.  It was only a year old and still under warranty and the scratches on it gave it character that I would easily add to. I brought it home and everyone approved.  After a couple of hours of paperwork and a promise to fix the scratches, the van was ours!    Driving home, I started to wonder if I had done the right thing; "Had I rushed things?," "Was this really God's will?,"  "Was it really a lemon.," "Could I have found a better deal if I had waited?" As the questions flooded my mind, I could feel God say, "It is the right time, it will all be okay."  

My buyers' remorse and genuinely cheap tendencies battled with the peace that comes from following God in every part of life.   In my struggle, I held on to, "It will all be okay."  The next day, when I picked up my kids from school, my youngest started exploring the van's glove box, as he was looking at things he pulled out a book that I had assumed was the Sienna's  owners manual.  It wasn't - It was my owner's manual. Tucked in the glove box of this former rental van was a Bible!  God wanted me to know that He had picked out this van for me and that He knew what I needed and He would provide.  Perfect peace flooded my soul.

Have you had an experience where God confirmed a tough decision?

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